Sunday, April 29, 2007
*HEADING DOWN A VERY TOUGH ROAD......its 5.46am right now...wat m i doing here?
i hav been 'chiong'ing some idea write-ups for my assignments...its so damn sian...and i haven do finish...so i stop for today...and come here to release some stress....its gonna be awfully long...so...u guys can juz forget about reading on already...cos...wat i m gonna write is either going to leave u in '?????' or...'sure or not?sounds exaggerating'....but to believe it or not is up to u guys la...haiz...
anw...im starting to think...whether is this course really suitable for me?yeah..the cut-off-points is a really cool 16 points...and i m god-damn-lucky to get in because of my art...but...this course which i longed for is robbing many things away from me...friends...time...money...and the most importantly...it might rob my bao bei away from me...
this course...haven start school already need to spend abt 60-70 bucks plus already...then once schools starts...the shopping list never seems to end....i really need extra cash badly...and on tuesday...my lecturer told the class...'please save 50 bucks every month to spend for new art materials'...i was like....(+_$")....sian diao....
then my course...gives hw everyday...nope...not one...but one or two for each lesson we go for...so let's say if i have a tutorial and two lectures for today...most probably i'll get 2-4 hw to rush by next week...and they worst thing is tt if they are not satisfied..they'll reject your work straight-away...oh ya..for your info..my course deducts 50% for late submission..and 10% every following day...and one lecturer has already done tt....to the whole class...wtf...actually i tot my work was already ok liao...din' expect to get rejected...haiz...but lucky...first time...haven start deducting 50% yet...haiz...but still........
and for the hw...if they ask u to do 10 drawings...and u give only 10 drawings...no matter how good u draw...your grade will juz be an 'average'...if u wanna 'good' or a 'outstanding'...we gotto give them 2 to 3 times the amount they ask for...wtf~!how m i suppose to cope with it when i have so many things to do in a week????argh~~!!!
since the start of my school...i find myself pushing away my buddies' meetings and playing ball...and i bet they are already sian of my answer already...''sorry la..cannot..i gotto do my hw"..."sorry la...no money"....haiz...
it is really pushing me to the limits already...i m really very very tired...really very very stressed...but no one knows...no one can understands...once i get home...i really need to sleep...badly...and these few days...i have been sleeping on the table...i was doing my hw..but fell asleep without knowing...and i was rushing everything on the bus...and produced some shit work...but in the end..no need to pass up...wah piang eh~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!kns sia~!
and i really negleted my bao bei...i m really too tired already...then nv call her...and now...we kinda have some problems...:(...haiz...i really dunno wat to do already...i start to feel kinda lonely...cos...its hard for anyone to noe wat i m going through...haiz....aiya...forget it la...the more i say....the more i feel tt no one understands....i'll try to deal with it...juz hope everything will go on fine...cos sometimes...i think of giving up...
*please keep ur promise as i'll try my best to do my part..........................
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